Confessions of a nincompoop

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Livejournal's cool, but not quite what I had in mind. I like that I can choose specific friends to read certain posts and I'm going to keep using livejournal but only when I have something I can only tell to the scarce few. So if you want to be part of the scarce few, add me as a friend then. 

In the meantime, it's hello wordpress once again.

Although I'm quite stress free these days and quite content with life, I am barely alive. 

I am sick. :( But not in the major sense where I lie in bed moaning for death. I suffered a mild fever and am left with an itchy throat with the occasional cough at the moment. 

I am also disfigured. 

Sam's Simple Two Step Disfiguration Class
Spray perfume generously onto the tester paper.
Proceed to flick wildly in no particular direction in front of your face. 

The perfume landed on the skin at the corner of my eye. My already very wrinkled eye is now at the stage where if it gets any more wrinkled, it will crumble and turn into dust. 

I am now disfigured. Do they have charity funds for people who are disfigured? Ok. I know I'm blowing this to proportions, but it's really very upsetting! I am already thinking about saving like mad to go for surgery if it does not heal. I am quite horrified. :(

Oh well. Pray that it heals. I have not really made up my mind on cosmetic surgery yet and I don't wish to be under the scapel. 

I still want to get the perfume that stung me eye though. 

Other than the freak encounter with the perfume, life has been treating me very kindly. I have been generously doling out my time to slacking online, sleeping, eating, shopping (alone most of the time), meeting up with friends (Cecil, Simin, Pris, Yv and Shan!), watching tv, preparing for my trip and wasting my time away waiting for him at his events. It wasn't so bad though, the waiting. I tend to shop alone nowadays anyway, you don't have to worry if your friends are irritated with you.




KTV with the babe! I had a great time hogging the mike and making her listen to my dreadful voice. :) The Partyworld in Orch at Singtel has dreadful roach infested toilets though, which I'll soon be complaining about to the relevant authorities, it's really terrible can. Even Paragon's toilet had a roach!


After the workout session with Simin, we went to try Adam Road's Nasi Lemak! I like the rice, ikan bilis but though the chicken was crispy, it was a bit tasteless. I much prefer the Railway Station nasi lemak! :) I can't wait for our next workout session!



After a mani and pedi with Pris we headed for the Minds Cafe to meet Yvonne! Yes, it was 2 against 1 but hey, it was great fun! Though I must admit the medicine made me quite sleepy. I am unhappy sick. :(

Totally cool trying to prepare our luggage, reminiscing on our past tricks on Richardo. We have come to the conclusion that I am evil but too stupid to play successful tricks and she is smart/cunning. Though we would normally never have played pranks on people, we find that when we get together we tend to be quite crazy. :) I say cheers to more exploits!

I have also gone to the dentist and suffered 2 fillings, cleaning, polishing and scaling at the expense of $155. Horrendous. I was absolutely shocked when they told me the final figure.

Trip's settled, passport's settled, necessities more or less bought. :)

I have also decided to adopt a Taiwanese girl, an Indian boy and a Japanese boy in the event of my failure to conceive. Taiwanese girls are pretty, Indian boys are handsome and I've recently been charmed by this 14 or so year old japanese boy who BOWED to me when I indicated to him that he dropped his card. He was looking confusedly at the card on the floor when he recognised it and stiffened, turning quickly to me to proffer me a formal bow, earnestly saying Sumimasen. I don't really understand what that means, but that was absolutely endearing. I want my kids to be polite like that! 

I actually have quite a lot to say but I'm sleepy now so I shall just post up my latest obsession. 

Photoshop. 

I just bought a book that teaches the basics of photo editing! 

And so I decided to beautify our photos. 

Here's the original. 












And here's the edited one!














Yes I look a lot thinner because I was a lot thinner. This was some time back. 

But on to SPOT-THE-DIFFERENCES! 

Clues: Teeth. Complexion. Colour. EyebagS.

:) I'm happy. Ok, I'm not doing this just for fun, although it's fun! I'm going to make an album! :) I hope. It takes me really long to correct just one photo though. 

I really love my new book! Granted I already know about the cloning and the colour correction, but they've got little tricks to play with the colouration so that it looks natural! And instead of cloning, healing patch makes it more natural! So cool! I love!  

I gave myself an off-night last night, watching She's the Man, and I must say, I really enjoyed it! It's really nice! I loveeeeee Channing Tantum! He's so hot! OMG. I love teen chick flicks. Makes my day! 

Unfortunately, I also somehow had some mysterious stomach ailment where I kept burping and had a tummyache. So I ended up sleeping at 4.30am till like 2pm. And watched TV again till 4pm. Slacking the rest of the time, talking to my relatives who came over and watching more tv. :( It's my last exam of my life and I'm not studying. Very good. :(

Anyway, my aunt brought me miniatures of some stuff! Cool man! Now I don't have to go buy them for my trip!



Ok there's actually only one or two things that I will bring like the handcream or the body lotion. But hey, free miniatures are handy for trips! :) 

Yes I'm in a photos kind of mood today.


Waddup. Can't you give a bunny some privacy?


Just let me die. Hey wait. Aren't you going to at least TRY saving me?

This is how I look like at the moment. It's disastrous. 



I decided that I needed around 3 weeks worth of buffer before my trip so I went to cut my hair after the FYP presentation. It is gross. I am going back to my slanted fringe next time. 

I also baked on Monday. I really suck at it. :(



But hey, I'm fascinated with circle cookies. Although I currently own quite a bit of cookie cutters. :)

And yes, I got inspired by SM's cookies. :) 



When will mine taste remotely like hers. Boohoo. 

I met up with her some time back visiting my fav Pret A Manger! (not as nice as the first time I ate it leh) and watching Conversations with Other Women, quite a good film, I must say. Though I'd prefer a happy ending. 



I'm also the current proud owner of this. 



Courtesy of CHY, she knows I love Disney Princesses to bits! Thanks babe!

Oh yes, my trip is confirmed! I just got to get my passport done! I think I'll do it on Monday along with my teeth? My gums are currently swollen and bleeding. Sucks.

The physical and emotional toll of tension can zap your energy. One theory is that when you're under stress, your immune system erroneously responds the way it does to fight off infection, explains Monika Fleshner, PhD, an associate professor in the department of integrative physiology and director of the neuro-immunophysiology laboratory at the University of Colorado at Boulder. This can cause fatigue or fever, which force you to slow down and rest, just like you need to do when fighting off a cold or flu. Anxiety can also cause insomnia, which may lead to fatigue: When you're tense, you may wake up more easily and often have a hard time going back to sleep, explains Richard Schwab, MD, co-director of the University of Pennsylvania Sleep Disorders Center in Philadelphia.

Nix It: "Reduce mental stress by talking out your worries," Sadigh says. Unload to a trusted friend or set aside 20 minutes (no more) to write down your feelings and thoughts. Exercising for 20 to 30 minutes can also counteract fatigue by oxygenating the blood, promoting the release of feel-good brain chemicals, and distracting you from worry and anxiety, Sadigh says. Also, cut back on caffeine. It may boost alertness in the short term, but excessive amounts can exacerbate the physiological symptoms of anxiety. In fact, research at Duke University Medical Center found that consuming 500 milligrams of caffeine -- the equivalent of about four cups of coffee -- during the workday increases a person's blood pressure and reactivity to stress.

This proves my theory that I should exercise more and I should stop drinking so much tea. It also means that's why I'm so slow. Haha. And how I've been waking up early in the morning when my mom comes into my room to read a book and how I can't go back to sleep after. RAR. Friday come soon!

When talking about this seemingly gay tutor, I made the remark maybe he's interested in my bro.

To which my bro retorts: "MY ASS."

"Yes dear, that's precisely what he wants."

This is my current obsession.


I was taking photos of my brochure when I remembered them.

In fact. I decided that since I was moody. 

I should set it as my wallpaper.


But it didn't look that nice.


So I made one of my own. heh.

I think it can be improved on though. it's too cluttered. :(

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This is my final product. I'm satisfied. And happy. :)




This will prob stay for a couple of days before I finally admit to myself that it's still damn ugly. Heh. 

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Ok.

This is it.

This is more like me. 



:) the white space is faintly filled with the words ketchup mustard soya sauce mayonaise vinegar. it's not visible here but it's visible on my screen. I love this. I'm happy. :) For now. 

Oh yes. Today was a good day because in the evening he took me to a chinese massage place where they did my back and feet. It aches a bit but feels quite good. :) So pampered. :) PMS! I can fight you somehow!

I feel moody again. 

And I have a sudden urge to go drink ketchup.

PMS always hits me terribly. This month's one of the worse ones. 

Firstly, I get cranky for no reason. I flare up for no reason. Like today, I blew my top and cried buckets for no reason at my mom who was only trying to clean my room. (no she didn't scream at me, she didn't ask me to do anything. yes. I am that weird)

I am also mean and caustic to everyone who msges me, msn or sms. 

So it's actually better to call me rather than msging me, I think I'll be slightly less pmssy. I think it's the lack of human contact. I've been home for the entire week, going out only to eat dinner with him. Is this FYP-mates withdrawal syndrome?????? That's whacked!

Basically, I picked myself out of slacking on Thursday and did the ppt! It was off though I put in effort lei. *shit this means that i'm lousy at both design and work. how! :(  But thanks to the groupmates who guided me, it should be ok now. Then we can await K's comments.

So yes, to make myself not sit at the couch the whole Friday and watch endless tv, I decided to bake. It was decent enough, I think. 


Brownies and cookies!

Cookies I've almost finished because I've been binging. PMS. Need. To. Binge. I think I should go buy some carrots or something to binge on, at least it'll be healthier. I've been binging on cookies and chips. A LOT. And I had diarrhea on Thursday. I think that's what took my brains away from my ppt. It's the constant diarrhea and piles. RAR. But that's just an excuse.

I didn't quite like these cookies though. Brownie was ok, but tough to bake. I'm a failure. Boohoo. But at least nobody says the brownie sucks (nobody=mom and bf) BUT nobody said it was nice either. RARRRR.

Wanted to go support him at his first street CLAP! But I baked till late and wanted to touch up my ppt (suddenly felt guilty for shabby work and self slacking for a week) before I went out, so I didn't go in the end. Went straight to J's birthday party at Shang in Sentosa. It was quite fun I think. :) Actually, I was quite anti-social. haha. I mean it's just a fun place to be at and soak in all the happiness. That doesn't mean I have to party hard. I generally and literally sat in the corner of the room, chatting only when chatted to. I'm not lazy, I'm just shy la. Really. If I vaguely know the person, it'll be ok, strangers are another story.

This is where I sat the whole night. On the floor. In the corner. Surrounded by his chair, the wall, the telephone cabinet and a vast empty floor space before me.

Well. I was also happy because he asked me if I wanted sauce for my fry, and passed me this.


It's miniature Heinz bottles of mustard and ketchup! It came along with the supper! I love it! It's soooo cute!!!!

Yes. I am cheapo. I took one look at it and took it home. Heh. (that's alliteration!)

But it's now sitting at my room table (which is now very neat thanks to my mom.)

And yes, my mom vacuumed my entire floor and took my carpet to wash. (You can now sit on my floor once again Miss Pris. It is now sparkling clean. Free of all my tears because I cried before she cleaned my floor.)

I digress. But I have decided to use my ketchup when I can. And clean the bottle and decant new ketchup into it so that it's always full and cool to use. YAYYYYY. It shall stay in my room and be a permanent fixture to my table. It makes me happy just to think about them and see them! :) 

Ok my eyes are sore from too much crying so I should go play some games rather than do my gv17 presentation. hee.

And hopefully my mommy will stop being pissed at me for losing my temper, screaming and crying at her for no reason. Soon. :( It's my faulttttttttttttttt. I hate pmsing. I need happy pills.

I'm really glad that university life has proven the maxim "you can't find real friends in Uni" wrong, at least, for me. I think I've found quite a few, I shan't say who, in case I get "You treat me as your best friend? But I don't treat you as mine lei." Haha. Yes, it is rather childish (this happened in Primary school!) but it is blunt and direct. I must admit that I am aware that it has made me cynical and jaded, but I try to put it aside. I am coming to terms with it. I remember once BZ told me (in yr 1, after Ric's birthday at Redhill mkt, I remember!) that it's rare to find someone who cherishes you as much as you do, them. And that's just how life is. I didn't think much of that then, but I'm slowly beginning to appreciate the fact that life is never fair and it is strange.

I also think that I have fairly strong surges of intuition. Like how on Friday I bought underwear though I still have plenty of new ones at home. I ended up needing them because I dropped mine onto the wet floor. *TMI* lol. But I think I have occasional instances where I get a gut feel that's spot on. I like this strange instincts, cos they say women have strong intuition so I feel very womanly. hoho. Yes. Lack of sleep is making me crappy. I am unable to shift my sleeping pattern back to decent hours. I've been sleeping about 5 hours at 3-4 am every night since the start of this semester, and it's quite hard to sleep earlier and longer. HOW!!!

I would also like to mention that I love extreme makeover. Makes me very happy to see people happy. I also love the house editions, they are really such lovely houses! I also really felt very touched by the commercial for idol where they gave a brief mention to this singer, she really has such a beautiful voice, I felt like crying!